Jehovah Jireh

Well, there is no baby news to update on... yet (They will induce me Tuesday or Wednesday next week if she hasn't come by then). So I thought I'd just take the opportunity to share how God has been providing for us over and over again.

One of my cousins gave us a used car seat that seemed decent and we were planning on using it for Kendi. So I didn't register for one and of course had already spent all the gift cards from showers and such. But then I decided since that one was probably at least 8 years old, it would be better to get a new one, for safety reasons. The straps are a little different on the newer ones, and they have the bubble thing to tell you if you have it installed at the right angle. I was feeling like I would be a bad mom to scrimp on something important like a car seat. As I was in line at the checkout to buy a new car seat with the credit card, I thought to myself, "Maybe I should wait and just see if God wants to provide another way for us to get one. Wouldn't it be great to just give this need up to Him, and see how he provides?" But then the doubting kicked in and I decided I just needed to get it before she came, and bla bla bla bla. Well, God obviously knew that it was going to be a while before she came, because we are still waiting. And I just wish that I would have trusted Him, because the NEXT DAY some very dear, godly, generous, big hearted friends gave us some money because they wanted to help out with a CAR SEAT or a pack 'n' play because they knew I was thinking of getting those things. When I saw the money, I had the biggest lump in my throat... combination gratefulness to God, my generous friends and realization of my undeserving, wimpy, untrusting nature. And no, I'm not just putting myself down or being harsh. Really, my heart is black and despicable without Jesus and my day to day decisions become that way when I leave Him out! About a week later, God provided AGAIN... so we paid off our credit card, which had gotten racked up with some doctor bills, baby stuff, and computer expenses for Matt's business. And not only do we have the car seat, we have a pack 'n' play too. I don't share this to be like, "Whoa, look at all the "stuff" we have now," but just to say that God provides, and sometimes that's when we deserve it the least! A few months ago, on Oprah, she was interviewing a minister that had lost his retirement money due to the economy, and his church's giving was down, so he and his wife were barely making it. I don't remember the exact quote, but he said something like, "I haven't lost my faith, I still believe, but faith doesn't put bread on the table." I just have to say YES IT DOES!! Well, God does, and sometimes it's even when our faith is lacking.

Here is Matt with the first "provisions" from our garden that we have been able to eat - zuccini squash and a cucumber. Still no tomatoes yet, but I'm sure we'll have some soon. My favorite! Yum!!























Everyone, please pray for Kendi to come before Tuesday so I won't have to be induced! I am ready to meet this baby girl!